THE SELF DOUBT DEMON

Here we go! Five, six, seven, eight… Left, right, arms behind, left foot, snap... Again! Left, right, arms behind, left foot, snap.’ The opening sequence of the musical A Chorus Line encapsulates the cutthroat and competitive nature of auditioning. Based on verbatim interviews with performers of the 1970s discussing their attempts to make it on Broadway, the production shows a crowd of dancers – all tits, teeth and very tight-tights – get whittled down to just eight people by a director come drill sergeant, Zach. If someone can’t do a perfect 720-degree spin on one leg and look like they’re having a jolly nice time whilst doing it, he promptly asks them to leave. Although acting auditions te

THE LONELY ACTOR

Sometimes in the profession loneliness can rear its ugly head, you may be away filming for weeks on end or on tour with a play, it's inevitable that you can often feel alone. Even simply struggling with not working and auditioning can leave you feeling isolated and depressed. Or at drama school where there is huge pressure to deliver for tutors etc - it can all feel a bit too much. I have these thoughts regularly and have struggled to find effective ways of coping. I remember a chat I had with the colossal Mark Rylance once about these feelings and he said, 'I still feel like that but you have to learn how to push those negative thoughts to one side, you will never get rid of them completely